Why turning 18 scares the crap out of me

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It’s well into September of 2017, which means only one thing. The school year I turn 18. What I mean by this is it’s the start of people who I grew up with, went to school with, am friends with, turning 18. This scares me greatly. Most people can’t wait until their 18th birthday. They can’t wait to “legally” be able to do all the things they have wanted to do and have been doing anyway since they were 15. Me, well I’m shitting it.

I am not a big partier so the whole “going out” thing doesn’t bother me too much. Yes, I will now and then, but it’s not something I’m desperate to do. There are so many things that terrify me about turning 18, here a few.
·University. Do I want to go? Do I not? ·What am I doing life wise for that matter? ·Adult prices of things (boo hoo) ·Pressure. I ain’t a kid anymore. ·Where have all the years gone? Can I just press restart? ·More on that matter, I felt like I wasted my teen years for so many reasons. That makes me sad, and I feel like turning 18 signifies a…

Hello again

I hate the phrase "I don't know where to start", but in all honesty I don't with this post. I have hugely neglected my blog over the past few months and I understand that you are all probably thinking - where are you? Quite a few things have happened since we last spoke, so let me fill you in. Before I do though, I just want to say, I can't thank you all enough, my readers, for your continuous support. You have been showing the love to my blog over these past few months that I haven't been able to, regularly reading and being overall great, so thank you.

My last proper post (forget about all the YouTube things for a while, we'll get to that) was at the end of March. Shortly after this, my laptop broke and I was already being weighed down by a million and one other things so it was kinda shoved to the bottom of the to do list. Intense revision for my GCSE'S was beginning, and by the time April came around, I decided I'd try and get my laptop sorted and get back into my weekly posts around my 16th birthday, April 28th. I had so many posts planned, I had gone to Center Parcs the week before and took numerous shots for posts and I was excited to be doing posts for my big birthday. Although all this was happening, I wasn't actually feeling too great, mentally and physically. At this time, I got hugely let down by someone, I thought this person got me and understood things, so when they showed otherwise, it made me think if they don't, how can anyone else, therefore I lost motivation for blogging for a bit. This then happened again, with someone else (boy wise this time :/), the same sort of situation and this changed me. I'm lucky in the fact I do have some great long standing friends, who will support me :). By the time It was nearly my birthday, I was mega excited for the big day and my party and all the fun blogging opportunities. When in true Tamzin's life style, this all got ruined. I became really ill on my birthday, having to come home on my actual birthday from school, as well as having a week and a bit off after that. That long off during intense study period is not good, and should be avoided at all cost, which I guess then actually shows how ill I was. When I eventually went back to school, my GCSE exams were beginning, so I had to focus on them as I'd had time off and obviously I had to focus on them anyway.

At the end of May, I decided to start my YouTube channel. I had been dabbling with the idea for SO LONG. I mean it. Ever since I started watching Youtube properly back in 2014, I have wished I had enough courage to start my own channel. I would occasionally and secretly film videos, that no one would see, just because I loved the whole concept of it all. For my birthday, I got a camera, the Canon 1200d. Once I was better, and had got through the first part of my exams, I decided to film a video. I had gone shopping to Manchester the day I filmed my first video, and had bought so much stuff. I thought to myself "I want to haul these". So I did, and it all went from there. It might have been a bit crazy to launch my channel in the middle of my exams, but not only did it just feel right, I was trudging through my exams, feeling a bit shit and wanted something to feel content and organised about as that wasn't how my exams were going. It's hard to explain, but in the end it all worked well, my exams went well overall and I'm happy with my channel. #winwin

I had my prom on the 23rd of June, and I loved it. Here are a few snaps.










A few days after prom I went on holiday to Corfu with my Mum and her boyfriend Neil. It was nice to have along two week break after the stresses of my exams amongst other stuff. It was real good come down. I'm writing this the day after I came home. Feeling a bit cold and confused. Here are a few photos I took on my big camera. You can find my iPhone taken ones on my instagram (tamzinlena), I put a lot on. A lot.











Now I'm back I am going to throw myself into blogging and my YouTube channel. I hope you are excited for all the upcoming content, I definitely am.

Youtube channel - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTn3csRueXBOYejTu1X1ceg

Here's to the future :)

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

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