I honestly don't care

I am exactly where I want and need to be.

So why would I care what you think?

I think I have finally made peace with the fact that some people can't be pleased.

Being a people pleaser, it took a long time to get to that point.

I constantly longed for validation off people. I wanted people to validate that I was good enough. I wanted people to validate that I was worthy of time or attention. I wanted people to validate my own existence.

But now I validate myself. I recognise that I am worthy of time or attention. I recognise that I am worthy of my own existence. I don't look for that in people anymore, because I have found it within myself. And that has allowed me to truly say,

I honestly don't care.

I don't care what you think of me. I don't care that you think I'm weird, I don't care that you don't like my hair, or my clothing choices, or my obsession with astrology or my love for animals. I don't care that you think being vegetarian is odd, or that I wear too much or too little makeup. I don't care that you think doing YouTube is strange, or writing a blog is out of the ordinary. I don't care because I am so happy with where I am, so why would I let people's comments affect me?

I have always tried to not care. But secretly I still always have. A recent turning point made me realise though, when I am truly happy, NOTHING bothers me. I only let things drag me down further when I am already on the decline.

You know in movies, when people seem so free? They bounce along with a pep in their step and a smile on their face? That is how I feel when I think about other's opinions now. I can escape from them. I can separate them from reality. They don't define me, I define who I am and who I want to be. I don't seek validation or long for that attention anymore. I feel sustained enough in my own life, with my passions, work and hobbies that I don't need it from no - one.

This isn't saying I am perfectly happy. I still struggle majorly with anxiety and bouts of depression. This is different. This is about accepting you are GOOD ENOUGH. And that you don't need anyone else to tell you that, only YOURSELF. It's about self love, self care and self worth. I haven't ever experienced pride in myself like this, which is why it all feels new and worth shouting about.

I look back on my achievements and feel proud - rightly so. It is only by doing this that I have accepted this new found mindset. If I can finally feel comfortable with where I am at - no one should ruin or intervene with it.

To clarify. I don't care what you think of me. Even if I don't feel 100%, 100% of the time, I can still see my value which goes beyond what you see on the outside. I can see that I am trying SO hard with University, my job, my online spaces... that I don't need you to SEE that too. Of course it's an added bonus when someone writes or says a nice comment to my face, of course I appreciate those and they make me smile like nothing else. But what I am saying is I don't let the BAD comments get to me. I don't let them change my mood or attitude. Positive vibes and affirmations only folks.

You are enough. Ironic that I am telling you to find this sort of acceptance in yourself and not to look for it in other people, and here I am telling you that you are ENOUGH, but just in case you aren't on this journey of self acceptance yet, I thought I'd remind you of how well your doing and how fabulous you are.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

Everyday Makeup Routine

I think I have finally curated my perfect, everyday makeup routine. It includes those trusty grab and go products, that you just know will perform like you want them too. I thought I would share them with you today, to give you a glimpse into what I put on my face most days. I wear makeup about 4 out of 7 days, maybe 5, depending on when I am at Uni/Work. The other days I am either at the gym so I don't bother, or just chilling at home.

Anything marked with a * has been sent to me free of charge from the brand/PR. It doesn't change how I talk about them. This is just my routine and the products I have come to love.

BASE.

For my base, I like to keep it pretty simple, using a nice medium coverage satin foundation and a lightweight dewy concealer. My top ones at the moment are both from the drugstore, making them really affordable and accessible. The foundation is the Rimmel match perfection and the concealer is Bourjois radiance reveal. The foundation gives me the exact amount of coverage that I want and it looks and feels great on the skin. It can be built up to if needed. The concealer has really great coverage also, whilst still being lightweight and easy to blend in. It makes my under eyes look more alive and I am very happy about that. I then use the Rimmel true matte powder to set both the foundation and concealer in place. I have used this powder for years, it is for sure a holy grail. It keeps me from looking shiny, without looking cakey or flat.

FACE COLOUR.

To make my face look a little bit more defined, I use highlighter and bronzer. I don't bother with contouring on a day to day basis, and it is rare that I pick up a blush nowadays. This is just because I have enjoyed streamlining my product use, and I don't really miss it. The highlighter is from Wet N Wild, and it is a gorgeous mild pink, and the bronzer is from Physicians Formula, and it is a lovely warm toned brown. The bronzer is quite light which is perfect for my skin tone in the winter.

BROWS.

I am still using my old faithful, and you can probably tell that it is a little old and well loved. It is the Kiss Cosmetics brow palette*, along with the Beautanio brow gel which has definitely ran out. (I just use it as a comb really). You can read about my full brow routine here. I love the brow palette so much, it makes getting ready SO much easier. 

EYES.

Most days I don't bother with eye shadow anymore. Not because I don't love it, more because it saves time. You already know about my fave palettes (Urban Decay Born to Run, Anastasia Modern Renaissance), so if I am ever wearing shadow, it is likely those. Now, I just whack on some liner and a bit of mascara, and I am good. The products I am loving are the Kat Von D tattoo liner and the Lancome doll eyes hypnotise mascara. The liner is so easy to apply, almost effortless, and the mascara adds a really pretty doll eye effect, as the name would suggest. 

LIPS. 

Sometimes I don't even wear lipstick. I know, a crime. Sometimes I don't bother because I don't like the feel on my lips for long, or I know I'm going to be eating (lol) and it will just come off anyway. If I do wear something, I will most likely go for a gloss right now, because they wear off in a way that you don't notice their disappearance. I actually really like this Soap and Glory metallic lip cream* at the moment, as it is lightweight and just adds a nice glow to the lips. I also really enjoy a Colourpop lip gloss I own, which is a tad holographic and sparkly. 

That is all for now, I hope you have enjoyed this snapshot into my everyday makeup routine. What products do you use everyday? Anything I am missing? 

Bye for now,

Tamzin xxx

Let's get moving! | #MoveGBSheffield | #AD

I am excited to announce that I am one of MoveGB's Sheffield ambassadors for their #MoveGBSheffield campaign.

When I was approached to take part in this campaign, I was a little taken aback, thankful, but taken aback. I am not a fitness freak, exercise enthusiast or sport saint. I am just someone who tries to get fit occasionally, and fails. I fail because I can never find an exercise I enjoy, or a programme/membership that truly works for me and my lifestyle.

But that is what #MoveGB is all about. They are for everyone, regardless of your background. Regardless of your experience. Their emphasis on flexibility and variety really shows it. Their memberships, starting at as little as £1 a week for their discovery trial, allow you to trial and test many different classes, gyms and studios, in order for you to find one that you personally enjoy. There are so many different activities to choose from, including swimming to pilates, that you'll never get bored, and you'll never be confined to just one gym. With 1000's of studio spaces across the country, there is always a studio nearby, ready for you to take advantage of.

MoveGB isn't just a workout membership - it's a lifestyle catered towards what you need. I love that about it, and it's why I have decided to partner with them. I am so excited to get started with my own fitness journey.

You can follow along with my journey here on my blog and on my instagram too, where I'll be sharing my trips to the studios on my stories. Don't forget to follow me so you don't miss any posts!

I hope you're as excited as I am for the upcoming content!

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx