Showing posts from March, 2020

What is in a name? | Why changing my name meant so much to me

If you didn't already know, back in the summer I changed my surname. It was a long time coming for numerous different reasons. I shan't be getting into all of those reasons today, because ultimately, they aren't things I want to talk about on here. What I want to talk about is the overall impact changing my name has had on me, and how it has made me feel, and why, it actually meant so much to me, the fact I finally made the leap and changed it. Without going into too much detail, I changed my surname from the one I was given at birth - my biological father's, to my mum's surname. I no longer have a relationship with my biological father, and though I was sad when I changed it, I am now at peace with the decision I made, and I know that it was the right one. I was mainly sad back then because not only was my previous surname my biological father's surname, it was my grandparent's too of course, both of whom have now sadly passed. I lost them a few

Public vs private

This blog post was written in November 2019 for context. I just forgot to post it due to all my recent stress (ironically) but I wanted to share as it is still relevant, even more so now in a way! There's other reasons I haven't been posting recently and why sometimes I don't post at all (for example, the absence of my YouTube videos) but stress is always a main contributor whenever I go MIA. Sorry 'bout that. Speaking of which, and current times, I am starting to get back on track with being more regular with posting, and it feels so good to pour so much positive energy into something! It is nice to have a hobby again and like I say at the end of this post, writing and having this outlet certainly has an impact on my wellbeing! Maintaining a private life when you've made so much of it public over the past 4 years is tricky. I often go through times in my life when I stop posting on Instagram, my YouTube and my blog, because I just feel a bit stuck. I'm stuc

A good molecule or two... | SKINCARE FAVOURITES!

*Includes gifted items It has been a while since I updated you on some of the skincare that I have found myself obsessed with over the past few months. I have been using Good Molecules after they sent me a couple of items to try out a while back now. Since then, they have sent me their newest releases and I have found myself recommending them to everyone I know... so I decided it was time to recommend them to you guys as well! My favourite product of theirs which I use every single day is the moisturiser . What I love most about it is the fact it has a priming element to it, meaning it creates the most perfect base for underneath makeup. Anything I apply on top goes on so smoothly and looks effortless. I am also obsessed with their oils, both the ultra hydrating one and the rose hip one . Both feel so nourishing once applied and they sink into the skin so seamlessly. Their serum is great for when my skin needs a little pick me up, and their overnight exfoliating treatment doe

Healing is not linear

"Healing is not linear" the quote read. I looked at my phone, and smiled, for the first time in a while. The quote was sent to me by my best friend, a few weeks ago, in the midst of the hardest days of my life. Seeing those words made me smile, as they reminded me how I just had to trust the process, no matter how hard, life altering, and frustrating it can be. A strange thing to smile at, I imagine you're thinking. Yes, to extent. But I was smiling because I felt seen. I felt heard. I was reminded that I do have a support network around me, regardless of how many times my anxiety tries to inform me that I don't. The hardest thing about healing is the unknown. Which I guess is probably the hardest thing about everything. The not knowing. How you can wake up some days and not know, have no clue whether the day is going to be a-ok, or cause you much distress, usually from one, seemingly tiny trigger. It's the unexpectedness of a relapse and how the anguish c