To tell you the truth, I haven't felt like I've had anything to say for a while. For a long while. Anything of purpose, anything I wish to put out onto this blog. My last post was about the TV show "Normal People" because after I had watched it, I had thoughts and feelings spilling out from every possible orifice on me. It spurred up so much within me, that I had to cumulate those thoughts and put those somewhere. Other than that, words have been few and far between on this blog. Maybe it's because I've been using them all up, all the words and all the thoughts and all the feelings on a project I am working on right now... maybe that's why...

I have also spoken about this before, A LOT, both here on my blog and my YouTube channel, about how I have this immense fear of posting when I have a lot going on in my life, when I am anxious etc. It makes my anxiety so. much. worse. I haven't just neglected this blog, yet again, I've neglected my YouTu…

Normal People

Over the past two nights I have binge watched the TV show Normal People. After hearing rave reviews, I knew I had to check it out, and to be honest, in it's own way, it was perfect. Emphasis on in its own way. Allow me to explain.

Love isn't perfect. It never is. And that's the point of this whole show. To show an accurate, raw and honest depiction of love in the current age. To show how sometimes, even two people loving each other, isn't enough for a relationship to work, or even be healthy. I've heard people exclaim that they wish the ending was different, that they wish they ended up together properly, living their best lives. But in my opinion, that would have completely ruined the show, on reflection. As much as we ship Connell and Marianne, and want them to be together, it wouldn't have made sense for this nitty gritty drama to suddenly become an airy fairy romance tale with the picture perfect happy ending. It was never going to be that. Like I said, it …

Looking back on my 20 before 20 list

I turn 20 at the end of April and even saying that, well, it sounds kinda scary. I can't believe that I have (at the time of writing this) 44 days left of being a teenager. (I wrote this post a while back... now I only have 15!!!)

In some ways, I am apprehensive about "being in my twenties" and in other ways, I am so excited. I feel like my twenties will be the years I really come into myself after having a horrible experience being a teenager. The only reason I am sad about this part of my life ending is that I worry that I will get too caught up on what these years should have, could have and would have been if X,Y, Z didn't happen. I've come to realise though, that everything does happen for a reason, and I am looking forward to going into my twenties as strong as ever.

I thought it would be fun to look back on the list of 20 things I wanted to do before I turned 20, which I made last year as I turned 19. I filmed myself talking through the list for my YouTube…

How to make simple yet ABSOLUTELY delicious choc chip COOKIES! *vegan* | Quarantine baking

If you are new around these parts, hey! I'm Tamzin, I'm almost 20 at the time of writing this and I post things on here about food, mental health, university life, and all things in-between! I am super passionate about all of the above and I often make YouTube videos about them too. You can check out my channel here -

Today I thought I would share with you my new favourite recipe that I have created. I have baked cookies and spoke about it previously on this blog, most notably the times I have recreated Tanya Burr's infamous ones. You can check out those blog posts here and here.

These cookies however, I believe are the best of the bunch. After a bit of trail and error, I think I have mastered it. That's not to say that these cookies can not be amended however. I am a big advocate of changing things in recipes to suit your needs and/or resources. I'll elaborate more on this later. For now, here's the basic recipe and method. I prepared m…

Getting ready for post-lockdown lashes! |

*Includes gifted items
A few weeks ago now (pre-lockdown), I was sent some pairs of gorgeous eyelashes from I got to wear a pair of them on a night out before all of this happened, and I will say, they are my favourite lashes to date! (The ones I wore were the eye candy ones!)

I cannot wait for another night out once all of this is over! The thought of being able to get all glammed up again, wear a gorgeous pair of lashes and be with my friends is keeping me going. is currently open, so if you want to stock up on some of your favourite lashes, ready for that first night out back, why not head over to their website and browse their endless supply of high quality, stunning lashes? They have lashes to suit every taste. Personally, I really like fluffy lashes, if that makes sense! Light but still dramatic enough to really make my eyes POP! 
I hope life is treating you all well at the moment, I know it's tough, but let's just keep focusin…

What is in a name? | Why changing my name meant so much to me

If you didn't already know, back in the summer I changed my surname.

It was a long time coming for numerous different reasons.

I shan't be getting into all of those reasons today, because ultimately, they aren't things I want to talk about on here. What I want to talk about is the overall impact changing my name has had on me, and how it has made me feel, and why, it actually meant so much to me, the fact I finally made the leap and changed it.

Without going into too much detail, I changed my surname from the one I was given at birth - my biological father's, to my mum's surname. I no longer have a relationship with my biological father, and though I was sad when I changed it, I am now at peace with the decision I made, and I know that it was the right one.

I was mainly sad back then because not only was my previous surname my biological father's surname, it was my grandparent's too of course, both of whom have now sadly passed. I lost them a few years ago …

Public vs private

This blog post was written in November 2019 for context. I just forgot to post it due to all my recent stress (ironically) but I wanted to share as it is still relevant, even more so now in a way! There's other reasons I haven't been posting recently and why sometimes I don't post at all (for example, the absence of my YouTube videos) but stress is always a main contributor whenever I go MIA. Sorry 'bout that. Speaking of which, and current times, I am starting to get back on track with being more regular with posting, and it feels so good to pour so much positive energy into something! It is nice to have a hobby again and like I say at the end of this post, writing and having this outlet certainly has an impact on my wellbeing!

Maintaining a private life when you've made so much of it public over the past 4 years is tricky.

I often go through times in my life when I stop posting on Instagram, my YouTube and my blog, because I just feel a bit stuck. I'm stuck b…