two thousand and nineteen

Every year I get excited to sit down and write this post. I get excited to go through my camera roll and look back at all the memories, and talk about what happened each month. This year has been different. I tried to write this post like I normally do, going through every month, and ultimately failed.

It has been a whole struggle. Like big time. I feel like it's because as I was writing it, I was reliving times that I didn't particularly want to relive. Like I knew what was coming, and it's taking me back to a dark place. January, February, March, April... they were pretty good. I travelled to Barcelona, I was looking forward to my trips to Rome in May and Gran Canaria in the Summer. But afterwards things happened and things changed. I was blissfully unaware beforehand, and just thinking about what happened afterwards... well it is giving me anxiety. So much of this year was taken up by two main things. And they makes everything feel insignificant. They cloud over all the…

Brightening up my life | Yes To glow boosting unicorn mud mask

*Includes gifted items

I love a good face mask.

They come in all shapes and sizes, types and textures. And I love them all.

When Yes To sent me their latest Unicorn themed released, I won't lie, I was super excited. I really like anything pink, sparkly, holographic and cute, and this checked all of those boxes! The packaging is super fun, meaning it spiked my attention straight away. It would certainly catch my eye in a store or on a website. (They are available on Beauty Bay too!)

I have raved about lots of different kinds of face masks before on this blog. I use them regularly. To me, they are an act of self care. A simple way to pamper and look after yourself, I do believe that there's not much better than applying a face mask after a long day. I always look for ones that claim to be glow inducing, as my skin can often look a bit dull.

The consistency of this mask is thick and clay like. It comes out of the packet in a pale grey colour, and once applied you start to see a p…

DON'T DRINK ME! | #BubbleT

*Includes gifted items

I am a sucker for anything self care related. I love a good pamper and to me, that is the ultimate act of self care. You know, I should probably drink more water, get 8 hours of sleep a night, and exercise regularly, but why would I do that when I can just chuck a fizzy thing in my bath?

Bubble T is inspired by the bubble tea phenomenon and the benefits of using tea-based properties in bath and beauty. They offer a range of innovative products in fun and creative packaging. They are Paraben, SLS and cruelty-free, and their entire bath & body range contains a range of tea-infused ingredients and essential oils for an uplifting and refreshing experience like no other.

Unfortunately, I don't have a bath in my University accommodation, so I had to wait until I went home to use these products. On that matter, I am considering starting a petition to force Uni halls to have baths. (I am not being serious, I understand why this couldn't be a thing). But think…

Taking life one day at a time | #MentalHealthAwarenessWeek

This past month has probably been the hardest month of my life

And that's saying a lot, especially considering I've more than likely typed out that exact sentence on this exact blog before.

One of those months where I can't even preach, "everything happens for a reason", because I cannot think of a single, good enough reason to explain why I am dealing with what I am dealing with currently. Or why I am seeing the people I care about the most going through what they are currently going through.

It's a never ending cycle. That's what life is. The ups and downs and the constant roundabouts.

Like a hamster wheel, that just won't stop, or a maze, that you just can't escape. Everything just keeps going, yet for some reason, you can't move forward. You're not getting anywhere, so what's the point? Every time you try to progress, you just trip, or fall, or get even more lost. You just have to stay, exactly where you are, for the time being a…

How destiny encourages us to let go

Over the past few years, I have become such an advocate of fate. The idea that life you know is so fragile, because if you'd done one little thing differently, everything could be, oh so different. Yet, recently, my thoughts and feels on this have started to change.

I began to consider how that fragility effects my mental health, and thus the actions performed by me. I began to question how the idea of fate makes me stressed, as I overthink every decision I make anyway. Thinking that something is such "fate" often persuades us to hold onto it, for a bit longer, even if it isn't right. "Oh but it felt just like fate!" or "it was totally in the stars!" = clouded judgement and stubbornness when it comes to things that don't align with that original belief. Ignoring signs, red flags and inconsistencies because they don't play into our romanticised idea of fate and what it holds...

Instead, I have began to explore the idea of destiny. Many peop…

Dear reader, let me talk to you about letter writing and self reflection.

A fun fact about me: I write. A LOT.

You probably know that already, because you know, you're here, reading my blog. But I don't just write for my blog. I write things that I would never post online, including poems and letters. I have mentioned before about letter writing. The funny thing is though, I write letters that I never send, and I have done for years. 
I actually laughed out loud when the film "To all the boys I've loved before" was released on Netflix, because I was so similar to Lara Jean in that way. Over the years, I have written an abundance of letters, not just to people I have "loved before", but to friends, old and new, family members that I do and don't see, amongst others. Whenever I really want to tell someone something - without actually telling them, I'll write them a letter. Sometimes a physical letter, sometimes ones typed and saved onto my computer. I am thankful though - that as of yet - not of the recipients have actu…


Recently the posts here on my blog have been of the heavier nature. I thought that today I would do a lighter post, focused on (in my humble opinion) the best ROMANCE FILMS on da flix. (Or Netflix, I am just trying to be hip).

I should probably start by saying that I am absolutely obsessed with romance movies. They are my go to. A form of escapism. I love them and live my life through them, lol. I guess I am just a big softy underneath my *attempt at a* hard exterior.

Let's start! 
Not all of these are strictly pure mush/trash. Yet, I like them all, so I figure if you have a similar taste to me you'll like them too. Oh, and another thing, these aren't my top romance films of all time. They are just the best romance films on Netflix. Some of my all time favourite lovey dove movies aren't available on there, sadly. 
The Fundamentals of Caring

"A writer (Paul Rudd) retires after a personal tragedy and becomes a disabled teen's caregiver. When the two embark on an i…