Tamzin Lena

University. Travel. Wellbeing. Beauty. Life.

Being honest

It's March 12th as I am writing this, and it hasn't ever looked more wintery outside. Around this time last year, I was writing a blog post about how it was finally spring, and how I was feeling proactive and productive as the seasons had changed. The weather was still bad though - snow blizzard after snow blizzard and freezing temperatures. Today it is raining like no other, a sudden downpour as I came into University.

Today I am not feeling proactive or productive. I am feeling ill, exhausted and to be honest, just drained. You know when you feel tired, but the word tired doesn't cut it? It is something that sleep can't fix. It lingers and it seems like there is nothing I can do to feel better.

I am busy - who isn't? I am at University, studying. I work part time, and then I do all of the YouTube and blogging stuff. It's a lot, but I know it'll all be worth it in the end, so that is what I am trying to remember. I know that being at Uni and studying is going to get me the degree I want - so I've made peace with that. I know that working at my part time job was the best opportunity I have ever been given - so obviously I've made peace with that. I know that doing YouTube and having my blog is what I love - so again, it is easy to make peace with that too. Sometimes it can all just seem overwhelming, even though everything is great on the surface. This then all comes along with a feeling of guilt - you feel guilty for letting the good stuff get you down.

I just need to find my flow again. I need to get back into that positive, go getting mindset. I am doing the go getting, don't get me wrong, I am getting what needs to get get. (Lol) But I just don't feel like I am going about it in the best way. I am procrastinating more than ever, I am getting distracted every time I try to concentrate. I've never been able to fully switch off, and I feel like I need to now more than ever. You know when your TV or computer is broken so you turn it off and turn it back on? I wish that could be done to me. A restart. If anyone knows how, do let me know.

The biggest indicator as to when I am run down is when I get I get physically ill. I rarely get ill from germs or traditional viruses I feel. When I am ill, it is usually because I am doing too much.

I am going to Barcelona in about a month and I cannot wait. I feel like this will be my opportunity for a break. Its at the beginning of the Easter holidays for Uni, so hopefully I will have gotten most of my coursework done. This Uni year is a strange one, we break up for Easter for 2 weeks, come back, and have 2 days of Summer term before finishing for the actual Summer. That means there's not a lot of time left in this semester at all - that is slightly anxiety inducing if I am being honest. This whole blog post I am just being honest. Kind of in the hope that if you're in the same situation, you'll find some reassurance in my own rambly words.

Once the semester ends at the start of May, I am staying in Derby to continue my part time job until my rent is up in July. I feel like this will hopefully be a good time to regain focus. I will be able to dedicate time to myself along doing what I love (my job) as well as fitting YouTube/blogging in alongside it. Once July rolls around, it will be summer, and hopefully I will be laying on a beach somewhere. But we'll see.

Writing this blog post, as usual, has been so therapeutic for me. I already feel better for getting all my words out onto the page. It's a relief, even if I did have no readers, it still feels like a weight off my shoulders.

I get SAD - no, not sad, but kinda. Seasonal affective disorder. I believe I have mentioned this in the past. My depression gets worse in the winter months, and for the past few years, it feels like winter has gone on forever. Thus me feeling worse for longer. The longer, lighter days and the sunshine always makes me feel better. We had a slither of warmth a few weeks ago, and it reminded me that things will pick up. I can not wait for the next few months. There are lots of cool things happening, and I am trying to remember that.

I am going to leave this here before I go on forever. I just feel like sometimes, it is so important to be honest with how you're really feeling. For yourself, and you're own state of mind, but also, just in case it resinates with someone else. We're all in this together. I swear I always find a way to include a High School Musical reference.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

You go Glen CO YO! | CO YO Organic natural coconut milk review

*Includes gifted items

A few weeks back, I was very kindly sent some of the CO YO Organic natural coconut milks to review. I have been trying them out and I have to say - I am very pleasantly surprised. These milks are dairy free and Vegan, as well as being made with minimal ingredients. There is no compromise on flavour though. They are rich, creamy and brimming with the coconut taste.

I got to try out the original coconut flavour, as well as the strawberry one too. I have to say, the strawberry one knocked the original off the top spot. I am a HUGE fan of strawberry milkshake, and this cleaner, more natural alternative is definitely a winner. The thick consistency resembles a more of a yogurt texture, but I really liked that as it filled me up throughout the day. I have to say, I did really enjoy the original flavour too. They are both stars in my eyes!

If you are Vegan, dairy free, lactose free.. all of the above or none at all, I would recommend you try this. Like I said, even if you don't have any dietary requirements, they are just a super delicious, flavoursome drink. You can check out CO YO's website here and their instagram feed here.

The CO YO Kefir range is available nationwide at Ocado, Whole Foods Market, Planet Organic and Independent health stores across the UK.

Now for the technical stuff...

This new range is made with artisan methods by fermenting organic coconut milk for 12 hours with 14 different live vegan kefir cultures. This produces a range of drinks that are brimming with billions of live, active cultures including Lactobacillus Plantarum and Bifidobacterium BB12 which can support gut health for a natural boost. The benefits of kefir have been enjoyed for thousands of years and now CO YO’s range will allow Brits to experience them dairy-free and organically. Kefir is traditionally made by fermenting cow’s milk to produce a drink that is rich in probiotic bacteria. CO YO’s Kefir is made using the same traditional methods, but with coconut milk. Each sip is packed with live cultures that can boost beneficial bacteria in the gut and are said to support digestion, the immune system and aid general wellbeing including improving people’s mood. The drink contains 50% pure coconut and is blended with filtered water, making it a refreshing way to enjoy the exceptional health and beauty benefits of this miraculous fruit. Indeed, every drop is a source of potassium, protein, calcium, magnesium, fibre, vitamin B-12 and vitamin D.

Every product in the CO YO family is all-natural and made from whole ingredients and is free from dairy, lactose, gluten and soya. Produced at the brand’s own premises in England, CO YO combines coconut milk with natural vegan cultures to create silky smooth coconut kefir. It’s this clean flavour profile and luxurious texture that makes it a true dairy alternative and the best tasting and highest quality vegan kefir in Britain.

The CO YO Kefir range is completely organic and carries the Soil Association accreditation as part of the brand’s ongoing commitment to producing the best quality coconut milk products in Britain.

I hope you enjoyed this blog post and hearing more about CO YO, and their products. I think it is really interesting and insightful to learn about new additions to the market, what they are about and where you can find them, which is why I share content like this on my blog. 

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

A day I will never forget

There has been a lot of defining moments in my life. To be brutally honest, a lot of those moments I would have rather not happened. But they have played a huge part in who I am today, and I strongly believe that despite how hard they may have been, everything does happen for a reason.

I've been through some shit. 99% of that shit I do not and will not ever (well, we'll see) post online, as it is private and too difficult to share so openly. I felt like this about what I am going to talk about today for a good portion of time, only partially opening up about what happened last year, in a spontaneous instagram post that you can see here.

8 years ago on February 25th (which is today, because I have spent way too long writing this post), I was involved in a car accident that almost took my life.

I feel shaky and tingly and sad writing that.

I was 10 years old.

In a strange sort of way, I feel silly saying "I almost died". It's like when you get one mark off the top grade in school and you say, I almost got an A. It was a B, so be proud of that. That's how I feel about this day. I almost died. But I didn't. I lived. And I have to focus on that.

I can talk pretty candidly about a lot of hard things in my life, to my friends or family. However, whenever I try to talk about this, or write about it in this case, I get choked up. It's strange. I only really realise how much that day actually affected me when I think about it for long enough. I guess that is because I have trained my brain to block it out for the most part.

I woke up that morning, and it started 'like any other day'. But it's true, it was a normal day in the February half term (a week long school break). I was in my last year of primary school at the time, and it was the Friday, meaning I should have returned to school on the following Monday. I was heading for a day out with a friend of my mum's and her granddaughter, as well as my mum's friends mum. My mum wasn't coming, she had a hair appointment that day.

My mum's friend lived on the next street, so I walked round to her house to set off. (I just want to say at this point, I am finding it really hard to write this, I am having to do it in parts to prevent the tears falling!)

We got in the car and headed to pick up someone else who was meant to be coming with us, but we never made it to his house. I don't remember a lot of the journey, but I will share a bit of what I do and then what I have been told. The last thing I for sure remember prior to the crash was being handed a packet of crisps. Of course, I remember food. They were a pack of cheese and onion squares, and I remember saving them to have later on in the journey. I never ate them. Kinda still sad about that. The next thing I know, I was waking up after being knocked unconscious on impact. I was then handed a cloth, to apply pressure with to my face. Not crisps this time, a cloth. The cloth was white and once I took it away from my face after holding it there for a few seconds, it was red. (With blood. In case you didn't get that).

That is the one single thing I actually remember.

To fill in the gaps, I'll now tell you what actually happened. (This is what I have been told/made aware of etc) Warning - this may be triggering. It definitely is for me writing it...

We were driving down a road (obviously) and a car pulled out a junction without stopping, and thus crashed straight into my side. I was back left so I received quite a lot of the impact. The impact threw me forward and my head hit the seat in-front. My glasses smashed because of this and the glass cut into several parts of my face, thus the bleeding, damage and now subsequent scarring. I also suffered other injuries as you can imagine, such as whiplash, pain to my legs and a sprained wrist, to name a few. The car was a 3 door car meaning I had no immediate way to escape, plus the fact I was unconscious the whole time anyway. I first went unconscious on impact as mentioned, and then drifted in and out of consciousness until I got to hospital. When the paramedics did arrive, it took them a while to get me out from the back. I don't know how long. The lady in the passenger seat in front (so directly in front of me) was elderly, and she had shattered both of her ankle bones, so they struggled to move her and thus get to me. I was trapped, and that is where my fear of tight spaces and claustrophobia comes from. My legs were hurt as I said, and because I was trapped, this didn't help. I remember the girl next me was awake and screaming the whole time. Turns out, she ripped her bowel because of the seatbelt. In my case, the seatbelt protected me. In her case, it actually caused a lot of injury. Of course, it also protected her too. We think it did that because the impact was so intense, and twice over (the car actually hit us twice after we span) and she wasn't wearing a coat (an extra layer) where I was. She had taken her coat off just before. Scary how things work eh. I am no longer in touch with anyone else from the accident, so I can't comment on how they are now, but to my knowledge, they all made a full recovery. - Physical at least.

I remember bits from when I arrived at hospital. My face being stitched up and the yucky hospital food I can recall. I remember some family members coming to visit. I remember hating the attention. I cringe at it. Is that weird to say? I still do hate that sort of attention. Like being in hospital and people being worried or sad for you. I just hate feeling like I am making others upset and I can't do anything about it. I had to stay overnight. I was actually meant to stay longer but my mum and I managed to persuade the doctors to let me go home. I just didn't like it, I guess no one does. I got home to my brother who was sat on the sofa with a blanket and his laptop for me and him to watch my favourite TV show that I missed because I was in the hospital. I actually started crying typing that. I love my brother very much.

I guess I am not really sure what else to include. That was what happened. I mean, it doesn't just stop there. The endless appointments afterwards, dealing with the mental and physical scars.. It is still ongoing, in every sense of the word. For a long while afterwards I wouldn't travel is cars with anyone other than my mum, I guess it was because I made the connection that when my mum wasn't there, something bad happened. I can't imagine what it was like for her, getting that phone call to say that your child had been in a serious accident. I remember my school was phoned too, to let them know, and when I went back after about a week they told me that two of the teachers started crying hysterically at the thought that I was almost killed. I don't want to know my mum's side of it. That may be selfish but I couldn't bear to hear what it was like. I suffered short term memory loss during and after the accident, and it is believed that my memory has been damaged in the long run. See, I have an excuse for being so forgetful!

I remember being told that if I hadn't worn my seatbelt, I would have died. That is what the doctor said to me.

So if you take one thing away from this. Please, always wear your seatbelt. Please. Also please don't speed, please look both ways at junctions and please be cautious and aware of other people on the road. You may not care about yourself. You may be wreck-less. You may think it is a bit of fun. But you are risking the lives of others.

I am a writer. I write about everything. Even if I don't post what I write about online, I write. In notebooks and in letters. It has taken me 8 years to write one thing about this. I am proud of that.

I think it is time to leave this here. There is more I could say but also there isn't. I would just ramble about how much my life has changed, how my anxiety spiralled, how much it affected me psychologically. It is already triggering enough for me, and maybe you. I don't want to shove unnecessary stuff down anyone's throat. I think you get the general gist from this extract.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

Pretty Little Treats

This post includes gifted products.

We could all do with a treat now and then, am I right?!

What better way to pick yourself up than with The Pretty Little Treat Company?

Based in Yorkshire (love local business!), The Pretty Little Treat Company sell handcrafted, vintage inspired bath and body products which are SLS and Parabens free. The packaging of their products are beautiful and covered with intricate details, such as bows and stunning imagery.

They very kindly sent me some of their gorgeous items to try out, including their lip balm, hand cream and a body polish which I am most excited about. I love me a good pamper, and these items definitely make for one. They smell unreal. The polish smells kinda floral and lovely, whilst the hand cream smells sweet and feels so soothing. The lip balm however. OMG. It smells exactly like palma violets, I want to actually eat it. (Which I won't, don't worry, it just smells THAT good.)

If you want to get your hands on these amazing cruelty free products, you can use my discount code (not affiliate or anything) which is TZ15, to save a little dollar. These products are wonderfully affordable anyhow, but a discount code is always a winner. You can also check them out on social to hear more, their instagram is @prettylittletreatco.

The majority of their packaging is also eco-friendly, which I love. I am finding ways to be more sustainable and learning this about their products was an added bonus! They choose to use glass, aluminium and card which are fully recyclable and sustainably sourced.

I hope you enjoyed this snippet into what Pretty Little Treats Co is all about, I loved trying these out and I can only say good things about the items and the brand as a whole. From what I've tried so far, I love each item and can't wait to continue to use them.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx


A Vegan Valentine's | Luxury & handmade plant based chocolate

With Valentine's Day looming, what better time to treat yourself, or your partner, to some delicious chocolate? I know I wouldn't mind receiving some, and I definitely wouldn't be opposed to buying some myself...

Why don't you celebrate Valentine’s Day with one of Spain’s leading luxury chocolate brands, Cachao? The brand produces a range of handmade plant-based chocolate that’s the perfect romantic gift for those looking to impress the discerning chocoholic in their life. This organic bean-to-bar chocolate is now available in the UK in time for Valentine's Day. 

Exquisitely packaged in a gold box and tied together with a beautiful ribbon, the decadent chocolate gifts come in a variety of unique editions including Lavender & Apricot, Rosemary & Walnut and 100% Cacao, which are guaranteed to please a special someone this Valentine’s Day.

The Valentine’s Day Range

Cachao Chocolate Squares (40g)this pocket-sized box of Cachao’s signature Chocolate Squares are the perfect way to ‘wow’ a loved one.

Cachao Chocolate Squares (150g)this larger box of delicately thin, melt in the mouth Chocolate Squares are ideal for those wanting to pamper that special person this Valentine’s Day. 

Cachao Chocolate Bars (60g): for a decadent treat with a luxuriously smooth and silky texture, this raw chocolate bar is a truly romantic gift.

Cachao’s Valentine’s Chocolate Bars and Squares are available in three distinct editions:

·         100% Cacao
Power-packed, raw cacao and nothing else, this 100% cacao offering is smooth and silky in texture with a complex earthy and smoky flavour.
·         Apricot & Lavender
Made with 71% pure chocolate, this refreshing blend of floral lavender and juicy ripe apricot provides a unique and vibrant flavour combination.
·         Rosemary & Walnut
This aromatic combination of earthy rosemary and creamy walnut marries perfectly with the decadent 71% pure chocolate base. 

Cachao’s bean-to-bar recipes deliver the highest quality and most luxurious chocolate possible. It is produced using the finest ingredients from both local suppliers in the Balearic Islands and Mainland Spain and the highest-quality, sustainably-sourced cacao from Indonesia and South America. The brand has a huge celebrity following on the continent, with many choosing it for intimate gatherings and parties. Raw cacao beans are carefully harvested, peeled and fermented before being stone ground on-site at the Cachao premises. Here, they undergo a complex four day production process where the resulting chocolate is heated (always under 42 degrees) and cooled at certain temperatures for specific time intervals to deliver the perfect balance of textures and taste.

Each of the brand’s mouth-watering chocolates are free from gluten, soya, dairy, refined sugar and are low GI. They are rich in flavour and packed full of natural nutrients such as magnesium, iron and chromium, all of which can have a positive effect on blood pressure, bone composition and brain and heart function.

The brand sources its cacao beans, coconut blossom sugar and cacao butter from Big Tree Farms, an ecologically sustainable farming initiative in Bali that works directly with individual community farmers across the country.

Cachao’s packaging comes from recycled materials and is designed, sourced and printed locally in Mallorca. All ingredients are organic, ecologically farmed, fairly traded and sourced locally, wherever possible. Those ingredients which grow only in the tropics (ex. cacao, coffee) have been carefully sourced from farms with a deep commitment to sustainability and a strong sense of responsibility to local workers.

The brand’s bespoke recipes were meticulously developed over two years by the brand’s head chocolatier, Tino Wolter. Wolter is a renowned chef in Europe, where he has established himself across the Michelin Star community.

Cachao has a luxuriously smooth texture, sublime flavour profile and the exceptional ingredients and bespoke production process retains the goodness of chocolate in its purest form, making it a natural aphrodisiac that delivers a hit of naturally-occurring caffeine and theobromine that has an energizing effect on the whole body.

The Cachao range is available online via: http://cachao.eu/en/ with an RRP of £5.50 for 40g Chocolate Squares, £18.00 for 150g Chocolate Squares, £7.00 for a 60g Chocolate Bar and £12.00 for a 120g jar of Chocolate Covered Cacao Beans or Chocolate Covered Espresso Beans.

Be sure to follow Cachao on Facebook and Instagram

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

This post is not sponsored but I have been gifted some of the chocolate. 

I honestly don't care

I am exactly where I want and need to be.

So why would I care what you think?

I think I have finally made peace with the fact that some people can't be pleased.

Being a people pleaser, it took a long time to get to that point.

I constantly longed for validation off people. I wanted people to validate that I was good enough. I wanted people to validate that I was worthy of time or attention. I wanted people to validate my own existence.

But now I validate myself. I recognise that I am worthy of time or attention. I recognise that I am worthy of my own existence. I don't look for that in people anymore, because I have found it within myself. And that has allowed me to truly say,

I honestly don't care.

I don't care what you think of me. I don't care that you think I'm weird, I don't care that you don't like my hair, or my clothing choices, or my obsession with astrology or my love for animals. I don't care that you think being vegetarian is odd, or that I wear too much or too little makeup. I don't care that you think doing YouTube is strange, or writing a blog is out of the ordinary. I don't care because I am so happy with where I am, so why would I let people's comments affect me?

I have always tried to not care. But secretly I still always have. A recent turning point made me realise though, when I am truly happy, NOTHING bothers me. I only let things drag me down further when I am already on the decline.

You know in movies, when people seem so free? They bounce along with a pep in their step and a smile on their face? That is how I feel when I think about other's opinions now. I can escape from them. I can separate them from reality. They don't define me, I define who I am and who I want to be. I don't seek validation or long for that attention anymore. I feel sustained enough in my own life, with my passions, work and hobbies that I don't need it from no - one.

This isn't saying I am perfectly happy. I still struggle majorly with anxiety and bouts of depression. This is different. This is about accepting you are GOOD ENOUGH. And that you don't need anyone else to tell you that, only YOURSELF. It's about self love, self care and self worth. I haven't ever experienced pride in myself like this, which is why it all feels new and worth shouting about.

I look back on my achievements and feel proud - rightly so. It is only by doing this that I have accepted this new found mindset. If I can finally feel comfortable with where I am at - no one should ruin or intervene with it.

To clarify. I don't care what you think of me. Even if I don't feel 100%, 100% of the time, I can still see my value which goes beyond what you see on the outside. I can see that I am trying SO hard with University, my job, my online spaces... that I don't need you to SEE that too. Of course it's an added bonus when someone writes or says a nice comment to my face, of course I appreciate those and they make me smile like nothing else. But what I am saying is I don't let the BAD comments get to me. I don't let them change my mood or attitude. Positive vibes and affirmations only folks.

You are enough. Ironic that I am telling you to find this sort of acceptance in yourself and not to look for it in other people, and here I am telling you that you are ENOUGH, but just in case you aren't on this journey of self acceptance yet, I thought I'd remind you of how well your doing and how fabulous you are.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

Everyday Makeup Routine

I think I have finally curated my perfect, everyday makeup routine. It includes those trusty grab and go products, that you just know will perform like you want them too. I thought I would share them with you today, to give you a glimpse into what I put on my face most days. I wear makeup about 4 out of 7 days, maybe 5, depending on when I am at Uni/Work. The other days I am either at the gym so I don't bother, or just chilling at home.

Anything marked with a * has been sent to me free of charge from the brand/PR. It doesn't change how I talk about them. This is just my routine and the products I have come to love.


For my base, I like to keep it pretty simple, using a nice medium coverage satin foundation and a lightweight dewy concealer. My top ones at the moment are both from the drugstore, making them really affordable and accessible. The foundation is the Rimmel match perfection and the concealer is Bourjois radiance reveal. The foundation gives me the exact amount of coverage that I want and it looks and feels great on the skin. It can be built up to if needed. The concealer has really great coverage also, whilst still being lightweight and easy to blend in. It makes my under eyes look more alive and I am very happy about that. I then use the Rimmel true matte powder to set both the foundation and concealer in place. I have used this powder for years, it is for sure a holy grail. It keeps me from looking shiny, without looking cakey or flat.


To make my face look a little bit more defined, I use highlighter and bronzer. I don't bother with contouring on a day to day basis, and it is rare that I pick up a blush nowadays. This is just because I have enjoyed streamlining my product use, and I don't really miss it. The highlighter is from Wet N Wild, and it is a gorgeous mild pink, and the bronzer is from Physicians Formula, and it is a lovely warm toned brown. The bronzer is quite light which is perfect for my skin tone in the winter.


I am still using my old faithful, and you can probably tell that it is a little old and well loved. It is the Kiss Cosmetics brow palette*, along with the Beautanio brow gel which has definitely ran out. (I just use it as a comb really). You can read about my full brow routine here. I love the brow palette so much, it makes getting ready SO much easier. 


Most days I don't bother with eye shadow anymore. Not because I don't love it, more because it saves time. You already know about my fave palettes (Urban Decay Born to Run, Anastasia Modern Renaissance), so if I am ever wearing shadow, it is likely those. Now, I just whack on some liner and a bit of mascara, and I am good. The products I am loving are the Kat Von D tattoo liner and the Lancome doll eyes hypnotise mascara. The liner is so easy to apply, almost effortless, and the mascara adds a really pretty doll eye effect, as the name would suggest. 


Sometimes I don't even wear lipstick. I know, a crime. Sometimes I don't bother because I don't like the feel on my lips for long, or I know I'm going to be eating (lol) and it will just come off anyway. If I do wear something, I will most likely go for a gloss right now, because they wear off in a way that you don't notice their disappearance. I actually really like this Soap and Glory metallic lip cream* at the moment, as it is lightweight and just adds a nice glow to the lips. I also really enjoy a Colourpop lip gloss I own, which is a tad holographic and sparkly. 

That is all for now, I hope you have enjoyed this snapshot into my everyday makeup routine. What products do you use everyday? Anything I am missing? 

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

Let's get moving! | #MoveGBSheffield | #AD

I am excited to announce that I am one of MoveGB's Sheffield ambassadors for their #MoveGBSheffield campaign.

When I was approached to take part in this campaign, I was a little taken aback, thankful, but taken aback. I am not a fitness freak, exercise enthusiast or sport saint. I am just someone who tries to get fit occasionally, and fails. I fail because I can never find an exercise I enjoy, or a programme/membership that truly works for me and my lifestyle.

But that is what #MoveGB is all about. They are for everyone, regardless of your background. Regardless of your experience. Their emphasis on flexibility and variety really shows it. Their memberships, starting at as little as £1 a week for their discovery trial, allow you to trial and test many different classes, gyms and studios, in order for you to find one that you personally enjoy. There are so many different activities to choose from, including swimming to pilates, that you'll never get bored, and you'll never be confined to just one gym. With 1000's of studio spaces across the country, there is always a studio nearby, ready for you to take advantage of.

MoveGB isn't just a workout membership - it's a lifestyle catered towards what you need. I love that about it, and it's why I have decided to partner with them. I am so excited to get started with my own fitness journey.

You can follow along with my journey here on my blog and on my instagram too, where I'll be sharing my trips to the studios on my stories. Don't forget to follow me so you don't miss any posts!

I hope you're as excited as I am for the upcoming content!

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx


two thousand and eighteen

You may recall I did one of these blog posts last year, to round up everything that happened in 2017. I thought I would do it again as I really enjoyed putting that one together, as well as reading it back 1 year on. I can't believe it has been a whole year (almost, I am starting this in November in an attempt to get ahead) since the last yearly overview. A lot has happened, so let's dive in.

2018 was a wild year. 


January started off like a typical January. Back to work blues and cold days, up until the 10th when something really cool happened. I was invited to the screening of Coco, a brand new Disney film, in London. It was being hosted by Danielle Mansutti, a YouTuber I really like. I invited my friend Ellie to come with me and we had a day long adventure in the Big Smoke. We caught a really early coach and got a very late one home, but we had a great day and it was so much fun doing something a little spontaneous.

In January, I also visited my new baby second cousin. You may remember that on the 9th of January, 2017, I lost my Nan. Well on the 9th of January, 2018, little Nellie was born. Exactly 1 year after her Great Auntie died, we all thought it was really special!

January was when I first started seriously considering going to Arizona in the coming Summer. I even bought a t-shirt to mark the occasion. I hadn't booked anything at this point, but the cogs had started turning.


February, I was a bit off. I felt quite glum. I was going through some stuff with someone and I think I was just really overwhelmed. On a better note, I went to visit Derby Uni again for the applicants day. I fell in love with the vibe all over again.

Over on my YouTube channel, I released some "merchandise" (t-shirts) to raise money for charity. They didn't come until March but I am very glad we did it and managed to raise a good amount of money!

In February, I reunited with my best friend after spending a while apart. We kind of grew in different directions after years of friendship, and we decided to see each other again. I am so glad we did because now we are closer than ever and our bond is so strong and solid.

Then it snowed. A lot. In February/March. It was crazy and very deep, and kinda affected my work flow. it was okay though, things were going good at the office and the snow wasn't going to stop me in my tracks. Metaphorically, I literally did get stuck a few times. Friendships had ended amongst other things and it just seemed to be an off month.


The t-shirts finally arrived, and as you can see, I was very happy with them. They turned out so cute and I am glad everyone liked them!

I had an exciting meeting in March. It didn't end up availing to anything but it taught me a lot and I thought I would mention it to remind you that not everything works out, but that's okay. Plus, I really liked my outfit that day, and I had a really nice day with my brother in Manchester.

March saw a lot of Pret mornings. I would set off for work mega early and sit in the cafe to do some work. Usually revolving around blogging and YouTubing, I really found my flow with them.


Easter! Gotta love all the chocolate.

Something very significant did happy in April actually. And no, not my 18th birthday, we'll get to that in second.

I turned Vegetarian. I have eaten meat all of my life. And I ate a lot of it. I was a big meat eater, I loved it. I would chose meals based on the amount of meat and I was always partial to meat feast pizza or a big mixed grill. But something just switched in me. Where is all the meat coming from? Why am I eating animal flesh? What affect is this having on the environment? I began to question more and more, and just thought enough was enough. I went kind-of cold turkey, pardon the pun. If you want to see how I went Vegetarian, you can read this blog post all about it.

I try to eat Vegan when I am out and I cook Vegan most often at home. I am not 100% vegan - and nor do I think I will be soon, but I think any change is a positive change, but that's for another day.

April saw the start of Spring and some gorgeous country walks with my family and doggy. I thought I'd include this so you could see the gorgeous pics from this day, in Hope Valley.

I went back to Derby again for the night with my mum. It was lovely and we got to explore the city. I vlogged the trip and we had a lot of fun. I love spending time with my mum and this was certainly needed. I had a lot of staycations in April, as you will see coming up.

The next weekend I went to Leeds with my good friend Kelly. We had a lovely spa night as a treat for my birthday. We dashed off on the Friday night after work, and enjoyed a lowkey, chilled night with room service and snacks. We shopped in Leeds on the Saturday which was great fun as well.

It was then time to enjoy my birthday. I had booked the Friday and Monday off work to enjoy a long weekend in Center Parcs with my family. It was to celebrate my 18th birthday and it was perfect. In a place I love with all the people I love, I couldn't have asked for anything more. It was amazing and I am desperate to be back there. Turning 18 was kind of surreal. I won't go into it too much now, but tbh I didn't think I would turn 18 haha. But I did, and all the celebrations made it feel very real! I am so thank full for my family, they truly mean the world to me!


Just before my birthday in April, I decided to dye my hair purple. It actually went more red and I didn't like it. I am not precious about my hair though, so I didn't fret, and kept it for a while. However in May, I did decide to change it, so I shoved a dark box dye over it and went with that.

Something really cool that happened in May was that I got two tattoos. My first two. My favourite is the wave, it holds so much meaning. The taurus symbol is a little nightmare, I have had it done 3 times since and the ink just keeps dropping out and looking so patchy. I am not sure what I am going to do about it, but whatever! I was so pleased with them and it felt so good to finally have tattoos!

May actually saw me book Arizona, officially. Flights paid for, arrangements made. I was so excited, and terrified too. It was such a big step to make, but I was so proud of myself. I have saved for almost a year, and to drop that amount of money, it was intense. But the excitement overwhelmed all the other feelings, and I just couldn't wait to reunite with Andrea.

I went to the Turtle Bay launch in Sheffield at the end of May.


June was INTENSE.

I was all over the place.

I remember being so overwhelmed at the beginning of the month. Everything was happening at once. I was finishing my job in June, I was getting ready for AZ, finishing coursework and my mum was on holiday for a lot of it. Obviously I need my mum to function and June was really testing me.

I went to a blogger's event at the beginning of June, which was lovely, but I remember that day for a different reason. I was so stressed. I went to work that night at the Chinese, and just broke down. I started crying (lol) and I just couldn't stop. I managed to get through my shift (just about) but I was a MESS. There's things I can't really talk about in the post, but there was other things going down in June, and especially this day, which were particularly difficult.

On a lighter note (ish) I went to Soccer Aid with my parents on the 10th of June. It was fun - except I remember my anxiety being really bad that day - I just felt so tense. Again, I just think this was down to stress and the fact June (as a month) was really overwhelming. With my mum being on holiday, I had to make food a lot for myself, which I think really got me into cooking.

I went on my first night out in June, for Georgia's birthday. I hadn't been on a night out since turning 18 - I hadn't been too fussed but decided to go out for my bestie's celebrations. We had fun and it was nice to get glammed up. June also saw me go out for cocktails - once or twice.

I finished my job in June. I had been there a year and it had been a rollercoaster ride. However, I learnt so much and liked my time there overall. It really helped me grow as a person and I gained really, really valuable experience. I said goodbye to colleagues and hello to new adventures. It was time to move on and experience new things.

Frantic packing commenced as July was creeping closer.


The day had come. The day I had been waiting for, for what felt like a million years. It was time to go down to London, and time to fly to Arizona. Whilst I am writing this, I still can't believe I went. Like that I actually got on a plane and flew to the other side of the world (almost). I had never been to America, I had never flown alone. It was crazy and still is to me. I am and always will be immensely proud of myself for doing this trip and it was the highlight of 2018 for me. Not just seeing Andrea and spending 2 incredible weeks with her of course, but just the actually beating travel anxiety part.

As mentioned, me and Andrea had the most incredible 2 weeks. I am sure you've heard me bang on about it one million times, so I will just include a few pictures here, and if you want to delve deeper into the trip, you can watch all my vlogs from it here.

I did get another tattoo whilst in AZ, to mark the occasion of course.

Something that may be a little weird to include in a yearly round up is a TV show. But I have to. In July, I became OBSESSED with the US office, and watched all 9 seasons over the following 6 weeks or so. I loved it, and I still watch episodes now. It got me through the summer and it really is the best programme ever.


August saw sunny days and also sad days of me missing Arizona. I longed to be back! Wanderlust in full swing, I booked a flight and hopped on it to Guernsey to visit my friend Imogen. Again, I vlogged the trip, which you can see here. It was so nice to see Imogen again and spend a few days away. I was so stressed about Uni whilst I was there, so I feel like I was a bit distracted. I long to go back and do it all over again!

When I came back, I was straight off again. This time to Leeds festival for a very long weekend. It was about 6 days in total, and it felt like it. It was amazing, but at the same time, exhausting. Not showering for 6 days was.. well.. not nice, but the company, the music and the laughter made up for it. The best way to end the best summer.

Right at the end of August, I went to Derby again, one last time before I moved there permanently. A little day trip with my mum, and I went to, my now favourite doughnut place, doughnotts. The best thing about living in Derby, I tell you!

Oh, I almost forgot, in August, I hit 1,000 subscribers on my YouTube channel, which was such a cool milestone for me!


September kicked off with a trip to Manchester to see the Arctic Monkeys in concert which was phenomenal. Despite the fact they didn't sing Mardy Bum or From Ritz to Rubble which I guess can be forgiven. They were a bucket list band to see for me and the fact I got to seem them on their opening night was awesome. I couldn't get tickets for Sheffield but I was happy with Manchester none the less.

I finished The Office, and I cried. Obviously.

On the 14th, I had a leaving meal for Uni with my family and Georgia. It all started to feel real!

On the 15th, I moved.

If you want to watch the moving vlogs, you can here. I got settled into my room and instantly loved it. Over the next few days, I went on nights out for freshers and to inductions for Uni. It was a great couple of introductory weeks which saw new friends and new experiences. I got adjusted to Uni life pretty quick and dived straight into the community Derby has to offer. I got involved with the Uni as a whole, participating in podcasts, facebook lives and more exciting projects. This only grew my love for a Uni and make me even more hyped for the future.


Lectures, life and lots in between. October saw new jobs, visits home and more exploration of Derby and all that it has to offer.

I also started my hungryveggiestudent account on instagram, which has been a great way to document my food whilst being at university and away from home. I love being a part of the veggie/vegan community and finding great ideas is so much fun.

Not much else happened in October, so let's move on.


Well first of all, I finished Jane the Virgin this month. What a TV show. Another TV show mention, I know, but JTV was wild and deserved a quick shoutout.

I started the month attempting to get all my work done - emphasis on attempting. Finding my flow with life has been difficult but it is one of my 2019 goals - to find my flow, routine and a little more structure.

November was a fabulous month for one main reason. I had been working with the Uni (my uni, Derby) on an Ad hoc basis, producing content for them as briefly mentioned earlier. Content in the form of videos, podcasts, live streams and pictures. In November, they asked me to work with them a lot more, and a lot more consistently, to essentially become part of their marketing team for the next semester. I was immensely proud when this happened, managing to secure something like this in my first semester was a real achievement for me. I can't wait to get stuck in even further.

My mum and step-nan came to visit me in Derby in Nov and it was a lovely day, shopping and eating lovely food. I love showing people my new city!

I went home again at the end of November for one last visit before Christmas.


I got a Christmas tree! Is that worthy of a mention? I just felt like I had to include it. I decorated my uni room for Xmas and it felt so nice and cosy. I am so glad I did as it helped me get into the festive spirit.

December saw a lot of work, at many a jobs, and a lot of Uni work too off course. I was so busy, and I can't actually emphasis that enough. I was burnt out, majorly, and was eagerly looking forward to the break. I had coursework to do first though, and a lot of other shit to get sorted.

In-between, I watched Christmas movies and ate nice food.

I packed to go home as the time came and waited until the 16th when I finally got to return to Sheffield. The next week saw Christmas fairs, shopping, more nice food and even Xmas markets. I spent time with my family, had festive gatherings and tried new gins before the big day. We even did the VIP cinemas experience in Sheffield, which was mega cool. Mary Poppins returns was a hit!

And then I got ill.

A mere few days before Christmas, I began to feel like absolute crap. And I still do, as I write this part, on the 29th. Nauseous, dizzy and constant headaches, it's awful. This went on for all of Christmas and like I said, is still going on now. I tried to enjoy Christmas Day as much as possible, seeing as I'd spent the day before in bed. Ive kept going when possible, getting out when I'm feeling capable, and resting in-between. Weve been boxing day shopping and on a winter walk. Today and yesterday, I binged "You" on Netflix, and also watched Bandersnatch, which holds the title for most frustrating experience ever.

It is now Monday, New Year's Eve. I am writing this just before I begin to pack up my stuff and head to York for an evening with my momma. I am so excited for a little night away to see in the New Year. We're planning on heading to the hotel this afternoon/evening, potentially chilling out in the room/spa for a bit, and then heading out for an Indian meal to celebrate. We'll then most likely have a few drinks, before saying happy new year at the cathedral whilst the bells ring. And then I'll probably want to go back to the hotel and sleep. Let's hope I can make it until midnight. Tomorrow we've planned to just wander round York, seeing as it is one of our favourite places, but I guess I should save that for next year's post, seeing as it'll be 2019 then...

Overall, this year has been a journey. I think that is the only way to describe it. There has been highs and lows, peaks and troughs. The year started out quite low, things beyond my control just kept happening and it all felt a bit blue. I guess like the January blues - except they went on until April. April saw a bit of change - I went away 3 times, celebrated my 18th and I was finally an adult. It went a bit low again in May and June, mainly down to stress, panic and worry about the future. I just wanted to fast forward those months - so I could get to the good bit, summer. July finally arrived, after what felt like a lifetime, and hopping onto that plane to Arizona felt like PURE freedom. I have never felt anything like it before. It signified so much for me. Freedom, change, triumph, power, love. I had battled demons to get there. Demons of life, demons of travel anxiety, general anxiety and more. 

I could finally let go. After Arizona (and the tortuous jet lag that followed) I was on a bit of a high. I booked to go to Guernsey to see Imogen for 5 days as mentioned and then onto Leeds fest. Summer for me was about being outside of my comfort zone, and I certainly did that. 

September was about fresh starts, moving to uni was challenging but amazing at the same time. I love uni, and I am enjoying it so much, but nothing can prepare you for the loneliness. I've battled loneliness for years, I actually made a video about it this year, but the type you can experience at uni is something else. 

October and November were deadlines of course and December has been festive, whilst being stressful too for sure. More deadlines obviously. I've spoken about getting my new job/role which was incredible. This was just meant to be a brief over view, ha ha. 

Let's talk about a few goals for next year. 

I don't do resolutions, I do goals. I know what you're going to say - they're the same thing, right? Probably, but I seem them differently. I like goals better. They seem more concrete. And less pointless. 

Goal #1 - Continue to grow and develop my YouTube channel, with high quality content which all my viewers will enjoy. Also work on my other platforms, such as my instagram and blog. 

Goal #2 - Begin a journey which will see both my physical and mental health improve. This journey will include fitness, cleaner eating and more positivity. 

Goal #3 - Become stronger willed. I won't be so weak. I am too much of a push over! 

Goal #4 - Find a flow with life. This will include my mental state, academic work, paid work and YouTube channel. Get a rhythm and stick to it. 

Goal #5 - Happiness

I am so proud of what I achieved this year, but I think 2019 can be even better. This year, I:

- Finished my apprenticeship with a high mark
- Finished my full time job with a sense of pride and accomplishment
- Saved a lot of money (I would like to add, I spent it all by the end of the summer)
- Flew to Arizona
- Flew to Guernsey
- Went to Leeds festival
- Got into University
- Started University
- Got a great job with Uni
- Got a first on my first ever assessed piece of work at Uni

I am ready to kick ass in 2019, are you? 

I just looked back at my 2017 post, it's crazy to see how far I have come. One example is I finished last year on 730 subscribers. I am finishing this year on 1,432. It has almost doubled! My overall channel views has gone from 43,000 to just shy of... 100,000. I am currently on 99,454. Just over 500 views until I hit 100k. How crazy is that! 

Looking back on my goals from last year, they were as follows.

- Continue with my blog and YouTube and get them to the point where I am completely happy with them. Expect bigger, better content and more of me in 2018. - I would say I have done this to an extent for sure, but I can't wait to do more of it next year.
- Pass my driving test - Something I didn't do. I stopped my lessons and ended up deciding on doing them after Uni probably, seeing as I have no need for a car, let alone affording one right now.
- Travel more - I certainly did that! 
- Girls Holiday - Erm, yes and no. I had the best two holidays I could have dreamed of with the best two girls (separately) Andrea and Imogen. 
- Start University - Yep!
- Be happier overall - I think so. 2018 was an improvement on 2017 I will say that. 

I really should end this as I have been writing forever. This has took me so long to somewhat finish. If only I put this much time into my Uni essays... 

See you next year! ;) 4000 WORDS LATER!!!

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

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