beauty | mental health | food | travel

Learning to live, love and let go

You can't have everything the way you want it in life.

Whether that be a bikini clad body, or the fit guy you fancy.

Not everything can always be exactly how you'd like it. This can be hard to except, but as soon as you except it, you can learnt to live, love and let go.

I am never going to be a size 0, nor am I going to suddenly grow a new face that I am ultimately comfortable with. Nor am I going to instantly get over the past, or be able to overlook all my flaws. Regardless of what it is that plays on my mind, there is always going to be something. Or someone. It may be a thing or a thought or a person that you can't stop obsessing over. But as soon as you make the conscious decision to let go, a weight will suddenly disappear, or your shoulders will feel a lot lighter at least.

Negativity is the kill joy of happiness. An obvious statement but a true one none the less. Constantly thinking negatively about yourself, your image, your past, your future, is just going to distract you from the beauty that surrounds you and the hear and now. You start to realise that life is precious, you only get one and you shouldn't waste time hating that extra belly roll or the person you are still kinda in love with. Even though they are things you might not be able to change, there is a large bunch of things that you can. You have choices always, and it's time you started making them.

I am an advocate of moving on. Learning to live, love and let go. Learning to adapt to change and new situations and new people. Learning to say "you're forgiven" after someone has done you wrong because they are the words that they may so desperately want to hear. Reach out if necessary, speak to those who love you, eat that pizza, jump in that pool, quit face tuning that selfie, smile a lot and laugh at your own jokes. Choose to surround yourself with people that make you happy, not people that are good for your image. Love despite. Sing songs from the top of your lungs and reconnect with people that will never leave your heart.

If you are reading this, I strongly encourage you to do all of that, and then some. Make someone elses day, tell them how much they are needed and wanted. Speak your mind for once, no one ever does. Don't live in fear, live in excitement. Don't lust, aspire. Be the change you want to see in the world. Read the book you've been meaning to for ages, text someone you miss just to see their words if you have to.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

Thoughts from the air #1

I’m currently typing this whilst on my way to Phoenix, Arizona. In America. A place I have never been before. As in I’ve literally never been to the states. And I’m currently sat on a plane, in the air, alone, going. Over 6 hours in, and feeling good. The ride so far has been relatively smooth, if you dismiss the odd turbulence here and there. I’ve been fed extremely well (I thought plane food was crap!) and I’m snuggled up, in a food coma, watching rom coms and living my best life. Who would have thought it. Who would have thought that I’d be here. Travelling to the other side of the world as an independent woman, doing my own thang. I may be travelling alone, but I won’t be alone more or less as soon as I step off the plane. My bestie Andrea, is waiting for me on the other side. Imagining that right now is making me so happy. Imagining us making eye contact after not seeing each other for 9 months irl is getting me so excited. We’re going to have such an adventure.

11 hours on a plane means no means of social media. I’ve completely switched off, and it feels great. No checking Instagram, or seeing if someone has text me back or not. I feel free! It’s crazy what a lil bit of downtime can do for you. Even if you can’t hop on a plane to do it, just turn your phone off for a while, you won’t regret it. I’ve watched films, ate food and listened to my favourite music with no distractions, except the occasional one from the air stewardess to tell me there’s another snack on the way. Those sort of distractions I don’t mind. 

Even though I had a few mini internal freak outs in the airport, I feel good. Calm. Level headed. I’m not scared of flying, I actually like plane journeys and I am really enjoying this one. I love being able to chill as mentioned previously, and I love being able to watch the virtual map to see where we are in the world. We’re currently going across Canada, you wouldn’t be able to tell that from outside however. Thick layers of clouds mask the world underneath, and I feel like I’m in a safe haven, up here away from the mess but home that Earth is.

I get scared of airports and business and crowds and people but I’ve got on with it and I’m okay. 

I’ll speak to you soon, I hope you enjoyed these thoughts from above. That sounds kinda creepy. I’m not some god like power. Even though some would call me a goddess ;)

Peace & Love 
Tamzin xxx

Catch Flytes not Feelings | Clean Energy Drinks

Sometimes you just need a "pick me up" to get you through the day. Often, in times like this, we will grab a high sugar, chemical fuelled energy drink. One where we have no idea what is in it, and one where it will probably doing more bad than good. We have all experienced "the crash" whether that be from Coffee or other caffeine sources. You know the one where you have a great spike of energy for a while, before you crash back down to ultimate tiredness. 

Flyte is different. I will allow them to explain as I am sure they know more about themselves than I do! 

"Flyte is an energy drink that works like your regular energy drinks but without the copious amounts of sugar and chemicals! All our ingredients are sourced from nature. Even our sweetener is extracted from the Stevia leaf. With less than 60Kcals in each bottle you can feel great that Flyte looks out for your waistline too! Flyte has 100mg of organic caffeine extracted from green coffee. You could say its a refreshing alternative to a double espresso! You'll be safe and sound if you drink FLYTE (if you're over 18 and not pregnant)! As FLYTE has caffeine, we recommend that you drink up to 2 bottles a day. Experts say 6mg of coffee per kilo of body weight is safe."

You can find out more via their FAQ's here

I tried Flyte for the first time yesterday and I really enjoyed it. The Red Berries is my favourite flavour, it's ultra refreshing and best served chilled. For some reason, I kind of expected it taste like coffee, which it doesn't at all. They are fruity and delicious and light, with a slight fizz. It definitely spiked my energy levels in the afternoon. I usually have a nap before I go to work in an evening on a weekend, but I didn't do that for once. This may or may not have been down to Flyte, but it was the only thing I did differently! 

If you want to try Flyte for yourself, you can pick up a free taster pack here

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

*this product was sent to me free of charge. In no way does that shape or form my opinion! :)

5 things to take in your hand lugagge that you may not think of

I fly to America in less than 3 weeks now, and even though I have plenty of time, I am organising myself pretty early to avoid any last minute stress. I haven't packed yet, no, but I have made "piles" of stuff in my room to make myself feel more at ease.

Today I thought I would share with you 5 things to take in your hand luggage that you might not of thought of. Often when packing we can get so caught up in the essentials, such as passports and passes, that we forget the smaller things that may actually make the journey run slightly smoother.

Talking of making things smoother, hand cream. Hand cream is not only great for your hands, it can be used as a general mosituriser to keep your body hydrated. Think of it as a multiple purpose cream, you can use it on your feet, elbows and face. Hand cream is very rich and thick, meaning it is the perfect product to use when your skin is dying for a drink. The one in the photo above is from Soap and Glory.

A change of Underwear. And a change of clothes too. (If they can fit) You may loose your main luggage, but you can't loose your hand luggage as it is always with you. Because of this, you should always carry a change of underwear, and a change of clothes too if you can. This means that in case your checked luggage gets lost, you will still have something to hand. My mum always says you should take a bikini in your hand luggage too, you know, just incase you need to go for a swim before your bag arrives.

Wipes. As Caroline Hirons once notoriously said, face wipes are for Fannies, Flights and Festivals. Side note: I hate that first word. It makes me cringe so bad. You know how some people hate the word moist? Well that first word is my least favourite word EVER. I use face wipes for my face often actually, as a first step in a cleansing routine. However, Caroline says that they should only be used on the three occassions above. Flights is an important takeaway from that I think. A good face wipe on a plane is needed, if you want to take off your makeup or freshen up in between connections. They are also handy for wiping down seats (plane seats carry a lot of germs) or wiping kid's hands if you are flying with a family.

A scarf. A scarf is such a handy thing to take on a flight, even if you are jetting off to a hot destination. They can be used as pillows on the plane, or blankets as it can actually get quite cold up in the air. As they are so multi use, it is really worth packing one. Well, you don't even have to pack it, as you can just wear it through security! You could take an oversize cardigan instead, as these are super cosy as well!

Something you can write with. So a pen or something. This is a must for long haul flights as apparently (especially with me going to America) there are quite a few forms you need to fill in prior to landing. I will be sure to chuck one in my bag just in case!

Let me know in the comments if I missed anything. The countdown is now on until I fly, and I really don't want to miss a long haul essential! I haven't lown long haul since I was 12, so it has been quite a while!

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

Long Distance Friendships

I have several "Long Distance Friends". Some of them I met "In Real Life" first, and they moved away, and some are "Online" friends that I have met since beginning to talk to. Let me say before we divulge into this post, that my "Long Distance Friends" and some of, and if not are, my best friends. Here's why.

You treasure them.

You treasure all your friends, of course. But there is something special about being friends with someone that you may not talk to everyday, but you hold so much trust in them, that you know they will be there, for you, regardless. You also know that when you are to see them again, nothing will have changed. Your friendship contains so much excitement, because you don't get to see them IRL very often, which means the time spent with them physcially is so special.

I have 3 close LD friends that I thought I would tell you about today. I thought I would tell you how we met, and how we stay great friends, even if there are a lot of miles in between us.

1. Imogen

Imogen was my first online friend. We began to speak in early 2015 when I joined twitter to engage with YouTubers that I was watching at the time. I started watching YouTube the year before and felt that I needed to join Twitter so I could be a part of the online communities. Within a very short space of time after opening my account, I joined a group chat with a few other girls. I was in it for a while, and so was Immi, but she decided to message me privately as she felt we had a lot in common respectively. And she was right. We began chatting almost every day, constantly messaging, facetiming, tweeting, you get the jist. Of course, you get the comments "how did you know she was real?!" I am not stupid. You constantly get told about online catfishes etc, which is fair, and understandble with the height in online fraudsters. But it's not all bad. Once you meet someone you get along so well with, and click, it's worth savouring that friendship. So ignore the haters, please do. Immi and I met for the first time IRL in December 2016, over 18 months after we first began to speak. Now almost 2 years on from meeting, we don't speak as much as we used to, but we are defo still amazing friends, and I still hold amazing memories from being with Immi that Christmas and all the other times we have shared, whether that be over the phone or face to face.

Here is what she had to say about long distance friendships:

2. Alex

Alex was one of my very first best friends in the whole world. We met when we were around 2, and we're 18 now. Alex moved to America when we were 16, and despite this, we have stayed in touch every day since. He is such a wonderful friend of mine. He's the kind of deeply caring, considerate and lovely people that you just really want and need in your life. He always make me smile, and I'd say he is one of the few people that really truly know me. I cried (a few times) when he left, because obviously I was worried about how it would affect our friendship. But I shouldn't have had any fear, as we have probably grown closer since he moved.

Here is what Alex had to say about long distance friendships:

"The things about having friends far away is that, if they're true friends, when you see them it's like you never left. You don't have to see people all the time to know your friendship means something. I actually think it makes it better in some ways because the time you do spend together is so much more valuable. You never lose something to talk about. I also think distance does an incredible job at weeding out the people in your life who are just there for convenience. Some people are just friends because they live near you, or are in the same classes. These kind of people disappear and make room for better friends. I feel like before I moved I had 50% proper friends and 50% convenience. Then I moved and now I have lots of incredible friends all over the world that I can visit any time. Currently, all my friends are moving away to uni. They're spreading all over the states. My best friend just moved to El Paso yesterday, 14 hours awake from Bentonville. And I'm moving home to the UK in September. But that kind of distance doesn't scare me anymore because I know I can see her whenever, all we have to do is put in effort. And that effort will make seeing each other so much more special. And besides, Skype/Facetime are incredible, you never really have to move away."

3. Andrea

Andrea was my first YouTube friend, my soul sister and BFF of course. We made friend's in Fleur De Force's comment section back in June 2016, and we have been close friends ever since. Both having blogs and YouTube channels, we would interact via them, before it changed to talking on social media, and now Whatsapp. Andrea and I met for the first time "IRL" in November 2017, in London, when she came over to visit her favourite city. I had to take the opportunity to go and meet her, as we got along so well online. It couldn't have gone any better. Andrea mentioned in one of her vlogs that she was apprenhensive of meeting YouTube friends because she was worried about what they would be like in person. I said the same, there is always that chance you don't click with someone when you come face to face. Kind of like when you go on a first date (I have been on a couple) and it seems great on text but then when you meet up, there isn't that connection. I shouldn't have been worried, and Andrea agreed. We got on like a house on fire. We had and have so much in common, way more than we even first thought. Even though we may seem like 2 completely different people living two completely seperate lives, our paths have intertwined and crossed and it was totally meant to be. I can't imagine my life without Andrea, whether that be via text or physically in person. I am flying out to Arizona to see her next month and I couldn't be more hyped for it. I just can't wait to spend 2 weeks in her company. I miss London with her so much, so this is 2.0.

Side note. I smile so much whenever I watch the vlogs above or look at the screenshots. I was so happy whilst I was in London. You can read a bit about it here, and hear about my experience with Travel Anxiety. I was so so content in London. Down to the fact I was so proud of myself, excited to see Andrea, and overwhelmed at how well we got on. 24 days and Counting. USA here I come!

Here is what Andrea had to say about long distance friendships:

"Long distance friendships are hard, but they’re the strongest. Tested by time zone differences, miles and sometimes oceans between you, absence from daily coffeeshop chats or birthday dinners, long distance friendships are tested in ways other friendships aren’t. But because of that they’re the best friendships of all. Only two of my best girlfriends live in the same town as me. My other best friends live in Michigan, England, and China. Some of them I only see in person every year or so.  Some I text and FaceTime almost daily or chat with them on social media. Others, like my friend in China, we hardly speak in between her visits in the summer and at Christmas. A 15 hour time difference and her internet difficulties make video calls and social media difficult. But when she comes home to visit we pick up exactly where we left off. Only the truest and best of friends can manage that. One of my friends in England, I see once every year or so when I visit and usually every few months on FaceTime. She has three kids and there’s an 8 hour time difference and she’s not on social media, but when we catch up it’s the best thing and I know that if I have good news or bad news she’s always there to listen. My other UK bestie, is one of my newest friends but it’s literally like we’ve known each other forever. Despite the distance of time and miles we seem to be constantly chatting on WhatsApp or Instagram DMs, sometimes managing multiple conversations on multiple platforms at the same time lol. At the end of the day, despite all the difficulties of long distance, these are all the women that I turn to to celebrate my wins or when I need a virtual shoulder to cry on. I talk to them more than I talk to friends who live in the same town as me. Each of these women met me at a critical time of my life and we formed an instant connection. A connection that couldn’t be broken because they moved away. So while it’s hard to be away from them, and while I often wish they were here or I was there, I would never give up any of my long distance friendships, because I honestly don’t know where I would be without those women."

I love my best friends a lot. Of course I have other best friends who live close to me, and aren't long distance currently, but with moving out to University soon, I am aware my situtation and friendship with them will change - or just adapt. As all of my friends mentioned above, you know a friend is a true one when you see them again after so long, and nothing has changed at all. Writing this post has made me choke up several times. I miss my friends, and yes I am slightly worried about moving away from my other friends, but I know how amazing my LD friends are, so I am not scared about having some more. 

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

200 Degrees Blogger Launch in Sheffield

On Saturday, I attended the Blogger's sneak peek/opening of 200 Degrees in Sheffield.

If you didn't already know, 200 Degrees is a chain of coffee shops throughout England.

They roast their own coffee and sell it fresh instore. And trust me, you need to try it.

Not only do they sell their wonderful varieties of coffee, they also sell an abundance of sweet treats and yummy sandwhiches. I got to sample a few (many) of their cakes and a couple of their savoury options too.The falafel wrap was gorgeous and the potato salad was to die for! I repeat, to die for. You need to try the potato salad. Yes, I will keep typing the words potato salad so that you actually take my word for it. I also sampled the hummus and beetroot sanwhich which was very tasty too, but I have to say my heart belongs to the desserts. I can't decide whether I preffered the honeycomb (!!!) rocky road or the salted chcolate bubble. They were both so delicious!

I also got to have a good ol' chinwag with Natalie from A Lot Of What You Fancy. We spoke about blogging, YouTube, careers, Astrology and so much more, and it was so so lovely to be able to speak to someone who does similar things to I. You can see her blog post about the launch here.

I hope you enjoyed this post and I hope you will check out 200 degs too. You can follow them on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook via the respective links. The atmosphere in the shop was so wonderful. The staff were so welcoming and really accomdating. The decor is beaut, and the shop has the right balance of cosy, without being too on top of each other. You can have a private chat, or get some work done, without feeling like someone is listening or paying too much attention.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

*press event (includes free samples, opinions are my own)

Turtle Bay Sheffield Launch Event

Last night I attended the launch party for Turtle Bay's brand new resturant in Sheffield.

I thought I would show you some sneak peeks of what we got up to, and what is inside the resturant before it opens to the public on June 3rd.

We had so much fun at the opening party and I can't wait to go back to try the food properly. The cocktails and the food we did get to try were so yummy, so I am more excited than ever to sit down and experience the reggae joy all over again!

Me and my friend Alex also went on the Sheffield wheel afterwards which was so enjoyable too. (This wasn't a part of the event)

Have you ever been to a Turtle Bay? If so, which one?

I need to eat that Halloumi burger again. You know me and Halloumi. I am obsessed. But the sweetcorn fritters too. They were on another level.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

*press event (includes free samples, opinions are my own)

Why I loved the Kissing Booth so much

On Saturday Night, I watched the movie "The Kissing Booth".

I then watched it again on Sunday Night. And I have watched my favourite scenes several times since as well.

Here are my top 10 reasons why I love the film so much.

1. I love that Elle and Lee’s relationship is completely platonic. They are simply best friends, and it doesn’t matter that they are Male/Female. I really appreciate this representation in film. More often than not, movies show two people who start out as besties and end up becoming lovers. It’s rare we actually just see a really great female/male friendship dynamic.

2. It’s everything I ever wanted in a romance film. It has the perfect level of cringe and cheese - nothing over powering but just the right amount to warm your heart.

3. Noah is very attractive.

4. It was written by a 15 year old girl who published the story initially on Wattpad. It was then made into a physical book, which has then been made into a Netflix original. How crazy and cool!

5. With it being written for Wattpad, it is exactly how you would imagine a classic wattpad story. A truly intense, original love story that has turns and twists that you’d never imagine.

6. Noah’s protectiveness. I ain’t a fan of control, and Noah did show signs of him being a bit OTT with it. However, you can see how deeply he cares for Elle. I have to say I really liked seeing him protect her, but her not succumbing to it so much, which leads me on to my next point.

7. In Noah’s own words, Elle doesn’t “fall at his feet” I loved loved loved that it showed Elle as a strong, independent young woman who yes, has feelings for Noah, but doesn’t let them mask his bad traits. She stands up to him, she says what she wants, and this is admirable and amazing to see in a teen rom com. She is what the kids would descibe as "woke".

8. It wasn’t afraid to show how love and friendship can affect men too. We saw Noah and Lee break down after their individual struggles with Elle.

9. It shows that love can change people. How Noah changed from constantly being angry and getting into fights, to his deep care and admiration for Elle.

10. It lightly touches on issues such as sexual harassment and sexism without it being the main focus, meaning it shows how often it happens in everyday life.

If you would like to see a favourite scenes / movie breakdown / different style of review then let me know!

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

Reflection | Association

To think deeply or carefully about. 

Isn't it crazy how one place can hold so many memories, both good and bad? 

Isn't it crazy how one place can be so happy, when it has also been so sad? 

There's this place, near my house. It is essentially just a field. Surrounded by trees and woods and nature. It's peaceful. Blissful. Somewhere to escape too. I often go down there when I feel like I just need time to reflect. It's lovely to walk around, and even lovlier to just sit. I used to come here a lot with an old friend of mine. When we were really little, we'd play in the seemingly endless stretches of grass, and down by the stream that trickled through the bushes. We'd play hide and seek, we'd race from one gate to another, we'd sing and make up silly songs and we'd crash and eat a "picnic" that we'd thrown into our bags. 

As we grew older, we'd still go to explore. We called it the usual place - one a playground, then a meeting spot. We'd meet there to chat, sometimes argue. We'd meet there to pour our hearts out to each other, because no one could hear what we saying. This meant that so much got said on this field, and it stayed there. Almost lingering, like a bad smell that was easily recognisable every time we went back. The same things would always get said. The same insults, the same compliments. The same angry words and the same "I love you's." They never got said anywhere else. This place was "safe"

Reflecting is a dangerous thing to do. It is because one moment you will be reflectng on the good times, remembering the happy memories, longing for them to return. The next moment you will thinking about all the terrible things that have happened there, and all the things you wish you could forget. 

It's a tricky one. That's association for you. We associate things with things and it gets messy. I can't tell you how many songs I "can't" listen to anymore because I associated them with people or memories and now they make me sad. Why do we do this? Why can't one thing have both positive and negative connatations? Or does that just make it more complicated

I am a very forgiving person, but not one that easily forgets. Is that a good trait to have? It is tricky to know. I like to think that it is good, the fact I can constantly see the good. But at the same time, it is so annoying. I way too easily forgive someone after they have treat me badly. It's frustrating. But I know that I never forget, which I think is annoying also. I will be friends with someone, but it is so hard to get past and try to ignore what they have done, even if I am okay with it now, X amount of time later. 

I think that is why I choose now to focus on the good. I can go down to this spot, and enjoy it for what it is, rather than what it was or what it means. Just like a song, or a TV show that you watched with someone. Just because you associate it with them, it doesn't mean it has to be about them. I can go down to my favourite local beauty spot, and enjoy it for that. I can enjoy the bird song that fills the air on a sunny day, and I can enjoy the sun which peaks through the trees at the top. I can think about the good memories, and the happiness, and that way it is so much easier to stop the negatve thoughts from absorbing you. 

And to my friend, if you're reading this, the trees are much greener that they used to be. :) or so they seem.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

Making the most of Spring

It is kinda ironic that the day I have finally been able to write up this post, is the first day it has rained in ages. 

The weather has been amazing recently, high temps and sunny days have been what we have seen for the past few weeks. I think it's due to pick up again this weekend, in time for bank holiday, so we shouldn't have to worry about the sunshine disappearing!

I love Spring. It is probably my favourite season. I love that the birds are back out and singing, the air is fresher, the plants are blooming and the blossom is growing. I love the longer days, the crisp but golden evenings and the peace that seems to fill the air. I also love that it involves my birthday (which was last month now) and overall exciting times. I love that everyone seems to be chirpier, just like the birds that are up in the trees, as Summer draws closer.

I used to say I preffered Winter, but really, it is quite miserable. (Excluding Christmas/The build up of course) the dark Novembers and the gloomy January's can't beat a warm Spring day by the lake with a picnic.

I actually did a blog post all about Spring a few years ago that you can see here. I do like that blog post, but looking back it does make me a little sad when I reflect on the memories from the day that was pictured within it.

I also did a blog post about it finally being spring this year, which you can find here.

This post will hopefully just act as a reminder to make the most out of this Spring, before Summer comes upon us before we know it. I am so looking forward to this summer, but I am really trying not to wish the time away. Let's be present and love the here and now. Let's make the most of Spring.

Bye for now,
Tamzin xxx

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