Tamzin

The exact time is 22:27pm on the 3rd of November 2018. I am sat crossed legged, on my bed, listening to the sound of fireworks explode outside of my flat window. It reminds me of the night I spent in London, a year ago to this day. I just had the sudden urge to write. To write about fate, my experience, and what it means to me.  You've probably heard the saying "everything happens for a reason" a million times. It's a quote I personally like to live by. I've been known to say - quite controversially - that I believe that coincidences don't exist. I fully trust that things happen the way that they do in order to teach us something or show us something we wouldn't have realised otherwise. However you think of it, whether it be that the stars are aligning or what will be will be, all of us have a habit of blaming things on the universe, or God, or the stars.  If you know me, you will probably be aware of the fact that I believe in astrology. Every ...

I couldn't help but quote 1234 by Fiest with the title. It is such a bop. I am sure at least one person reading this has had to deal with the ever fun situation which is as follows. You're talking to a guy or girl, everything is going a - okay, and all of a sudden, they "change their mind". A polite way of saying, they led you on. How are you meant to deal with such situation? IT SUCKS. You're there, thinking that they are the love of your life, and that is not how they see it at all. You're planning the wedding, thinking of baby names, decorating the nursery, and boom, tis no longer. Something I realised recently after going through this quite a few times, is that you don't want to be with them anyway. You honestly don't. Effort is a two way street and you don't want to be the one putting it all out there. Even if something does happen between you and your crush, beau, or whatever the kids call that awkward "talking" stage nowad...

You can't have everything the way you want it in life. Whether that be a bikini clad body, or the fit guy you fancy. Not everything can always be exactly how you'd like it. This can be hard to accept, but as soon as you except it, you can learnt to live, love and let go. I am never going to be a size 0, nor am I going to suddenly grow a new face that I am ultimately comfortable with. Nor am I going to instantly get over the past, or be able to overlook all my flaws. Regardless of what it is that plays on my mind, there is always going to be something. Or someone. It may be a thing or a thought or a person that you can't stop obsessing over. But as soon as you make the conscious decision to let go, a weight will suddenly disappear, or your shoulders will feel a lot lighter at least. Negativity is the kill joy of happiness. An obvious statement but a true one none the less. Constantly thinking negatively about yourself, your image, your past, your future, is just go...

To think deeply or carefully about.  Isn't it crazy how one place can hold so many memories, both good and bad?  Isn't it crazy how one place can be so happy, when it has also been so sad?  There's this place, near my house. It is essentially just a field. Surrounded by trees and woods and nature. It's peaceful. Blissful. Somewhere to escape too. I often go down there when I feel like I just need time to reflect. It's lovely to walk around, and even lovlier to just sit. I used to come here a lot with an old friend of mine. When we were really little, we'd play in the seemingly endless stretches of grass, and down by the stream that trickled through the bushes. We'd play hide and seek, we'd race from one gate to another, we'd sing and make up silly songs and we'd crash and eat a "picnic" that we'd thrown into our bags.  As we grew older, we'd still go to explore. We called it the usual place - one a playground, t...

I want to say before I divulge into this post, that a relationship doesn't have to be romantic. A relationship can and does relate to friendships and the relationship you have with family members or even just acquaintances. As soon as you say the word "relationship" to someone, they automatically presume you mean romantic, and that's not always correct. Friendships and relationships with family members/others are equally important and can be analysed in a similar way. What exactly determines a successful relationship is the question I am asking today. Does every relationship that you have had have to be successful? Can a damaging, negative relationship be successful, as it has still taught you something? What is the end goal? What is the scale of success? I would say a successful relationship is one that makes you happy in one capacity or another.  Whether that relationship lasted for 2 minutes or 2 years. If you think about it, you have a relationship...